So.... here it is 5:14 am, and I'm working a ' patient watch ' . Yup... I'm gonna bellyache again about being on call.... I mean- it's not like anybody's even reading this stuff...
Which brings me to a point... I am relatively new to this, in fact this is my first ' blogging ' experience. I was so excited- I was going to be able to EXPRESS myself to others- others I would hope with similar views..... YAWN....
I've done this for about a month now, and it appears that no one has seen/ commented anything on my ramblings. So- a decision was reached, it just doesn't matter.
It just doesn't matter if you read this.
It just doesn't matter if you agree with this.
It just doesn't matter if you disagree.... you see, as I checked and saw that there were no noted comments, something happened.... I got upset. Really- kinda' mad. I thought to myself- ' ... c'mon, somebody's gotta be into it, right ? ... '. But... y'know what ? It seems not.... so, as a product of my being upset, I set forth a change.
This is no longer about anyone else.
This is about me. Now- anyone who truly knows me, knows that I seldom put myself in this position. Most times, I'm trying to think about others, and what others may think. Sometimes saying or doing things just to get that opinion. AND- hopefully that opinion was supportive of my thoughts, or else we'd have a whole new set of anxiousness/ paranoia/ craziness going on.... I guess I thought this experience would help me ' scratch that itch ' in a whole new way. Right now, I'm thinkin' I guessed wrong.
Now please don't misunderstand me- I'm gonna keep with this puppy- writing when I can, or want to.... not for entertainment, but just for me.
OK.... well, back to the inital point- being on call sucks.
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